Fixation

I want to live on for you, not as a person or even a fond memory
I want to live for you as an idea
Not the words that I said to you at a party
Not any specific compliment (or insult)
I want to live as the thoughts that those words spark in your mind
The nights you lie awake, wondering if its true
Inbetween the spare moments you stare off into space at work
The weekends where you work tirelessly to prove it all wrong
The hours you spend pushing yourself to be more than you were
I want to live in your existence
Long after you have forgotten the words that spurred your change
I want to live in the new self you become
When you finally stop being your own biggest obstacle