It's been awhile

I miss feeling this way
I miss feeling like I'm addicted
And that the world is a tiny place with only my problems to fill it
I miss the way you taste
And the way when you're embarrassed you bury your head in my neck
I really miss shutting out everyone else
And turning off my phone
And not caring what was happening out there
Because everything I care about right now is right here with me

I miss the laughter
And I fucking miss your eyes
And the way I can see the love in it
And for this short amount of time, we're all we need and want

But this is just a vacation
A few hours where we can travel back in time
To when the world was a smaller place
And we can look out the windows in our little submarine
And just laugh at all of them out there
Because right now, everything is just perfect

A Spin Around the Sun

I remember kindergarten pretty distinctly. For a long time I remembered it as an eternity. It must have taken at least four or five years to get through. Of course I know now it was just two. And some of it was just half days. But it felt like a whole lifetime. I met new people. I learned so much. I made friends. I got bullied. I had multiple teachers somehow. It felt so very long. Childhood was like that. Two hour roadtrip were ordeals. A day passing was an eternity. Tv shows were so long, and the commercials long enough to go off and do other things and come back and still have time to watch the toy commercials. Then as I got older, 30 minutes of tv felt like nothing. I could on a whim jump in a car and drive for three hours and think nothing of it. And now seasons pass like days. I look out my window and think how a year ago, I must have been in this same spot, looking at the same view, and thinking the same thoughts. Time just keeps passing faster and faster, and it bothers me less and less.