Cyclophosphamide

We try and find reason for the time we spend between eyelids opening and closing

Find purpose for each second as they tick away

We try to find love to fill the hole in our hearts,

And hobbies to fill the ones in our minds. 

And yet when you go to bed, you still think of how much better it could be

Of those words you should have said (or shouldn't have)

Of how life wasn't supposed to end up in your bed on this night

And you pray you someday find a way to stop your heart from racing whenever the car stops abruptly

Hope that the moments that flash before your eyes aren't empty when you miss that last stair

Wonder if you've done enough as you wait for the doctor to enter the room, as the cold air wafts up the hospital gown

But no, it's never enough

There is always more life to live

And more lands to see

And more people to love

And more hearts to break

A life lived ten lifetimes long wouldn't be enough

And even then you wouldn't have done the thing you had set out to do from the beginning

So keep calm

Laugh

Drink

Live not for the means to life, 

Live for life itself